Monster, Monster

I made this during my final exam. I really can't focus on my exam and I started doodling with my exam paper (supposedly, the back of the paper should be used as scratch. but as for me, it's my sketch pad :p ). but doodling was not enough. then I began scribbling words. Words that came from my unconscious thoughts. Words that I swallow whenever I'm with other people. These words are my feelings kept as long as I remember. The feelings that have become my burden that I believe I cannot share with anyone else.

The monster that lives within me is longing to be free. 

It is unaware that I already gave the freedom long ago.

I nurtured it. Took care of it. Feeding it with my misery and despair. 

But that ain't enough. It began eating up my insides as well.

Making me a home fit for this monster.

Others must've noticed the monster that lies within me. 

Little by little, they also began to feed it.

The monster rejoiced of course! 

While I took its consequences.

How long should I keep this terrible monster within me? 

How long can I take the pain it constantly gives me? 

How long should I keep it controlling me?

You, do you know this monster? 

And will you be able to take it away from me?

look at my hideous handwriting. I swear, I really do have a good penmanship. I was just too tired to write appropriately and I am also afraid at that time that my classmates will see what I am really doing. haha!