kung gano ko kasaya last saturday, bawing-bawi ngayon. i was supposed to write another post kaso lang gipit sa time. i'm planning to do it this weekend sana. it was a very optimistic post sana. ang yet, natabunan naman nito. i do not know what to say or what i am alowed to say. i do not have any right to feel this way. my insecurities are washing away my confidence. after all this time - just when i thought ok na lahat - makikita ko to. what does that girl have that i lack of? did i waste my time fooling off to someone i thought you were? WHAT REALLY IS WITH HER?! God answered what i had prayed for Him e bakit i still ended up crying? :'( should i ask Him again? baka i misunderstood lang kasi. pero there's no way something like that would happen. i made my prayer very clear. do i have to bear with this every single time? but in the end, kasalanan ko pa din why i am hurting. di ko talaga alam. baka naman masyado lang akong judgemental or whatever. i heard from her. NOT FROM HIM. ewan! maloloka na talaga ko. swear! paranoid na ata talaga ko. UGH!
Lord, please save from all the heartaches. i've had enough of it. </3
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